Have you ever felt the weight of the world pressing in hard? I think we all have days or at least moments like that.

I love my job! Truly! This project has been so amazing. Spending each day with God creating wonderful content and design. I love it. What isn’t wonderful is my brain. – It is because God allowed it create so much goodness, but hidden in that greatness is a little speck of doubt and fear and impatience that rears its ugly head from time to time.

This week has been a time when the little stinky voice has been an issue. It’s poking at me. See this month is a bit crazy. There is a lot happening.

• My daughter in law asked me to proofread her book which is fine, but her book launch is September 29th and I got my copy of the first 2 parts last Thursday. Those are 856 pages and there is another part she’s sending over.
• My daughter is moving into her own apartment this month, so I’m trying to help her gather and pack.
• I also have a little side gig with Thirty One gifts and a new fall catalog launches on Sept 1st.
• I have two curriculums to write for our church kid’s ministry due in two weeks.
• I have to complete artwork on two books for publication for Go Godly
• I have some stuff to list for sale on this website which requires pictures etc.
• I have to finish organizing my office – this has been a two week long project already.
• I have a vendor event on the 21st and a party on the 17th and something else on the 12th – I have to find a calendar. LOL.
• I have to finalize all the room designs for “The Kingdom”, type out all the room descriptions for the quests, and finish a few dozen other odds and ends.
• Oh, and I have to figure out how to raise this money to get that video game project funded…sigh

As you can see, all this has devolved into my head spinning and the stinky voice to gain some ground. So, last night, as I do every night, I prayed. Stinky voice makes me feel as if I have lost sight of God, so I try to let go of all the “ME” in the situation and make sure I’m keeping God first. After all, “God First in All Things” is our mantra at Go Godly.

Trouble is, I’m human and I think I can manage things with God. I can, but I should not. This is where stinky voice has a hey day!! So as I look at this growing list of things to do, I lay it out for God. What does God say? In typical God fashion, He says to lay down the burden and take up His yoke, because His way is easy. I realize that is the trouble. I have a time line and urge to hurry. God is eternal – there is never a rush. God has set the time and place. God will direct the hearts of those who need to be part of this to do so. God will put the people I need in my path and open the doors that are closed. God will provide all that we need and more. I just need to remember God’s got this, because it is God’s – not mine.

Then this morning, God reminds me of what I need to do. Worship Him. Wait for Him, in the pasture filled with His love and provision and protection and just listen for His voice. So I will.